i keep hearing voices saying “jen why are you doing this” and i honestly fucking have to pass it off as bullshit breakthrough symptoms of my schizophrenia because IT MAKES NO SENSE I HAVE VOICES IN MY HEAD THAT TRY TO MAKE THEMSELVES SOUND LIKE THEY ARE COMING FROM PEOPLE IN MY LIFE OR WORSE PEOPLE I USED TO KNOW THAT I NO LONGER WANT IN MY LIFE AND THEY MOST OF THE TIME LIKE NOW MAKE NO SENSE LIKE WHAT IS THIS REFERRING TO?
i’m reading computer science stuff maybe the voices mean “why are you pursuing a career in computer science like seriously you don’t belong” or something and I’m like IF YOU WERE A REAL PERSON I WOULD PUT A FUCKING FIST IN YOUR FACE FOR SAYING THAT SHIT TO MY FACE SO YOU BETTER SCRAM NAO.
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DONT LET SCHIZOPHRENIC VOICES STOMP ON YOUR DREAMS OF HAVING A CAREER FOR YOURSELF. I DON’T NEED ANYONE’S JUSTIFICATION TO ENJOY COMPUTER SCIENCE BUT I DO LOOK FORWARD TO COLLABORATING AND CONVERSING WITH OTHERS IN THE INDUSTRY ON AN INTELLECTUAL LEVEL. IF “YOU” ARE TRYING TO FUCK THIS UP FOR ME, I HOPE KARMA RUINS YOUR LIFE AND GIVES YOU 5 YEARS OF UNEMPLOYMENT AND SEE HOW YOU OVERCOME ADVERSITY NOT TO MENTION A FUCKING UNCURABLE MENTAL HEALTH DISEASE THAT MAKES A LOT OF OTHER PEOPLE ACT REALLY WEIRD TOWARD ME NOW.